Continued Ramblings

What to say ....

This was officially the last day of Summer Camp here at school - actually yesterday was my last class time and I am now found mourning the loss of my home-bound buddies. I mean I barely got to know them. Tears. I was so exausted today after staying up way to late last night journaling about my frustrations of life till one and then also filling my self with junk like skittles and pizza.

Yesterday was sort of a blast. I went to one of the student workers' homes and partied with the rest of my friends. Took a nice dip in the community bathtube (aka pool), at delicous Indian food and then had a pillow fight and intimate talk with my friend Calvin. One thing I have observed in my short lived life is that whenever I swim nowadays - like relaxing swim. It usually marks a turn in tides... so to speak.

It was a cool place - Shiva's home - but what I don't understand about this Thailand land is sometimes things seem to clash so much and yet it has a perfect order to it. It's confusing but attractive. For example their home consisted of items of gold fish, christmas lights, angels, porcelian dolls, just random stuff. Oh well I suppose I fit right in then.. I am somewhat random and clashing!

It was fun hanging out with Calvin and letting him ponder, as he hit me over the head with a pillow, where I learned my pillow fighting skills (apparently I can give a nice smashing with soft pillows!). I claim innocence but just one look of my face might demonstrate some incongruence!

I don't know if I am depressed right now but oftentimes the tears seem to flow lately. I think I might be experiencing some culture shock but it is hard for me to tell. Also there are different stress that seem to be pressing down on me so that lends some pressure I don't need. But as my friend Nadia reassures me God's up to some good in my life. That is a definite comfort that I continually need to hear.

At the beginning of the week I found out that my 'baby sister' is going to be getting married at the end of this month. Something I expected in the future BUT not the near future. I didn't even know that she was in contact with this young man anymore. Shocked ... to say the least. A cool oppertunity came out of it however, during this time when I 'discovered' this I became in dire need of having someone talk to God on my behalf and so walking around campus I found my friend Howard and my new friend Mr. Chu. I approached them and told them that I needed prayer and was wondering if they would pray for me right then and there. Well they said yes and then told me afterwards that they had just been talking about me. Hmmm... somebody's got good timing.

Another thing that has alarmed me is the attraction men here have towards me. Now I don't know that I am a peice of meat... actually I know I am not. But sometimes double takes and stares are more blantant than I expect. But God's timing is best... plus I can't speak Thai! Sorry boys... off limits!