Confusion

Goodness, I never thought being back 'home' would be so difficult. Life has changed more than I suspected it would. I tend to look at the world as though it has somehow victimized me. I don't want that outlook. It hurts me.

One incredible thing about being back here is I get to experience seasons again. What can I say. Incredible! I love watching the leaves turn color, fall of the trees and swirl around when it is windy. Then there is the coldness... goodness it is freezing. I'm slowly acclimating, learning how to dress for the weather and accept this as part of life again.

It is definitely a change in my identity, being gone and then returning. Lots of questioning about where do I fit in all of this. Can't say that I know. Mai bpen rai.