Friday, April 27, 2007

Still 'homesick'

Thank you for inviting me to your class to speak. Sorry I didn't feel what I said had much 'clot' in it. It is hard for me to think about what I was told that I needed to hear, what I wish I had been told. I really struggle with a lot of regret, unwarrented guilt. I feel I really fell in love with that place and I miss it so much.

I hope you students can fall in love as I have even if it hurts to fall in love through serving God.

Thank you.

Response:

You beat me to the "thank you" email.

I wanted to thank you for coming. Your words were certainly appropriate and appreciated, but much of what you communicated wasn't even through your words. Thanks for sharing a bit of yourself. It was a blessing.

My Response:

I know things change as life continues on but how was your re-adjusting back. If I remember correctly you were a student missionary in Thailand correct? I know that I am 'better' than I first was in returning but sometimes I miss that place and those people so much. I feel so bittersweet when something triggers a memories of smells, children, places.

I would like to hear what you have to say. I know you help prepare students going out, what suggestions, though maybe I just need to be reminded, do you have your those who are back and 'homesick' for their land?